22nd of Nov 2011. Our five months, should be.

This date, on June. we're just started. But now, is in between single & complicated. I just wanna text you. But i knew, i wont get any reply with it. & yet even thou got also just something let me heartache. 


I wish i pass my today with you. But too bad, the one who sitting beside me is another one but not you. He stayed beside me, accompanied me quietly. I cried, tearsdropping front of him. He din't ask too much. He knew everything. He is just so caring, so loving.. he knows whats a girls needs. I swear he is good lover ever. Even thou he looks cool. I mentioned before, we're just more than a friend & less than a couple. It will never ever happen between us. I'm glad to have a friend like this, & just ONE enough for me. Hey you, thanks for wiping my tears today. I loves   you so muchhh. hohoho. Make sure keep sayang me, kay? Mr Mistery. I knew you got view my blog one. muahhhhhh (: 


Everyday, I'm waiting for something. what i'm waiting for? Idk :/ I'm confusing. cause you putting me in two situation & Without any clue. Thank you fucking much. Let me got different lesson in every relationship. Wanna train me become a superwomen? I don't need it actually. I just need some loves, caring. That's enough for me. I'm not a greedy women. 






SHUT THE FUCK UP! DUDES!

yet, i still miss you so much.

We dint talk for 11 days d. Right? How're you? & i miss you. So much.... can you feel it?  
everyday, when i slow down, before shut off my brain. you're the last person i'm thinking of in the end of my day. 
I still remember all the words npbetween us. Yet, everyone thought i'm ok. Play around,joke around. The stories behind the smile. who knows? 
Maybe, im a immatured, annoyed, kiddo, unperfect girlfie for you. 
Everyday i keep on concern on my tab. 
I hope that it will appeared your massages. 
I prayed for it everyday, but its doesn't seems work. 
Without me, you seems happier than when you together with me. 
Did i? Giving you a lots of stress? Is it im forcing you? 
I thought, you're the one boyfie i can travel my love as long as longer. But, i din't expected that over like fucking fast like this. 






Beside that, oh my damn. I felt annoyed with another. Cant you understand just be friend? But just keep on asking me something like non sense. Im pissed of with it. seriously.I told you earlier before d. My attitude is based on how you treated me, never ever step over my limited line. 








Im so tired today, hotel resting room close for renovation from 19 - 23 ): ive no place to sleep. huhuhuhuhu.  
SABAR SABARR SABARRR!!!! Three more days to goooooooooo & Ipoh i'm coming backkkkkkkkkkkk. wait me, tauge ayammmmmm!!!!!!!! 






night everyoneee. With lovesss. 

off dayy.

well, got a tablet now. no more excuses for myself not to update my blogggg. (: 
19 & 20 nov off day. yey, one more week to go. Back IPOHHHHH. Aunt's house warmingggg. Be there on friday, come back to Kl on monday. 
Tuesday gonna go for renew my passport. One more month to go, SG im coming for christmassssss. yahooooo!!! Haih, before this we're still excited to planning how we gonna celebrate with. But now all gone. become nothing. 


Again, single for this christmas. Sounds emo? Nope, nope....
Ma friends are still always there for me. 
Instead i have to learn not too trust a guy. not worth for my tears. Hurt myself in the endddd. (: 


Riko, stay stronger & tougher.  

third time end up & it couldn't be anymore.

yet, after five months. my love can't fowards anymore. its end up the start of november. i don't what happened actually. He was like very stressed when together with me. That's just a kind of my love & caring. i think he can't take it anymore. Cause of him, my patience, my attitude has changed. cause of him i became matured. After him, i know i can deserved another that more better one. Thanks for this five months, jason. 
Btw, im still missing the time we spent together. every single words that you told me, every single moment thats still clearly stay in my mind. Your warmest hugged ever i get. imy, seriously. so much. what for i keep on tearsdrop when you walk away from me silently. you just gone like that without any words. is it so hard to falling in love with me? Im not good enough with it? i give myself a lots of reasons & excuses. but i still cant get any answer. i really dont what you want from me. but i hope you get a girl that you really wanna be. stay happiness. good luck to you. bye, my love.